Update: 75% of my scar is barely visible, the remainder is not far behind. Ever since my first c-section, I have had severe bleeding in early pregnancy lasting at least a month and putting me on bedrest. This time around, praise YHVH, it has been negligible at most. Praise YHVH!
This journey has been humbling and enlightening, and has forced patience upon me. Last night I prayed and asked YHVH to forgive me for being cranky with the kids and then getting mad at them for getting mad at each other. Enter Sadie, 2:00 am. She wakes up screaming, and I yell at her. Oh how quickly we forget our best intentions. A very sobered mother apologized to her daughter and lay awake for at least an hour reflecting on the things learned in the last 4 months.
I have discovered three things about sickness, disease, and injuries. I humbly present them for your consideration. I am the mother of the previous paragraph, and I don’t know much. But here are my thoughts.
What causes “disruptions in our health?”
1. Sin. No one can read Deuteronomy 28 and not realize that our sin does result in curses, and many of those curses affect our health. Solution: Confess your sins, and begin living your life without those sins.
2. YHVH is sending a wake up call. Psalm 91 talks about dwelling in the secret place of the Most High, and being under the shadow of His wings. What an intimate relationship that portrays! Perhaps sometimes YHVH sends us physical ailments to bring us back under His wings. We got too busy, we got dry and boring when we talked to Him. For whatever reason, we left that secret place. He wants us back, and he knows that physical pain cannot be ignored and will bring us to our knees. This has been an important thing for me to learn. YHVH doesn’t just want a holy bride, see #1 above. He wants a holy bride. He wants the intimacy and the closeness.
“Trust in Him at all time; ye people, pour out your heart before Him: YHVH is a refuge for us.” Psalm 62:8
When is the last time you simply told YHVH how you really feel, perhaps with tears? He already knows, so why not be honest with Him?
3. YHVH wants the glory. I think of the man born blind that Yahshua healed. People asked whether it was his sin or his parents’ sin. It was neither. He was born blind so that YHVH would be glorified in his healing. Perhaps sometimes things happen to us so that others can see YHVH work, and glorify Him.
What should our response be when physical problems come our way? I think we should always start by looking for sin. Then we should check our relationship with the Father. Is it as close as it could be, or ought to be? And, through it all, we should glorify YHVH for how He works in our lives.
“Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but YHVH delivers him out of them all.” Psalm 34:19
For whatever reason, we will face physical problems, but the outcome is simple. YHVH delivers us out of them all, in His way, and in His time.
Praise the name of YHVH!