I feel like Job in chapter 42. I am humbled before an Almighty Elohim who controls the weather and creates mighty beasts that no one can tame. He is not to be questioned and not to be told what He will do. I am not worthy of His attention or His favor. Many others suffer great pain, financial loss, death. I face none of these things. I am truly blessed with health, prosperity, and freedom to obey my Creator. I fall on shaking knees not daring to ask for a thing for me.
But then I look up and see my Savior. He is suffering great pain, disease, humiliation and death. He has all power in the universe yet He is brought this low. And then He catches my eye. He looks directly into my soul and says, “I do this for you, so that by my stripes you can be healed.”
To be given another day is more than I deserve. To be given eternal life is sufficient. To have Him care about my little “problems” that mean nothing in the scheme of things is love beyond compare.
YHVH, my Father, you have given me everything. You have healed my heart broken by sin. You have healed my life that could have been utterly destroyed if not for You. It is sufficient. If you choose to heal more, I can only offer up a sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving, which is truly no sacrifice at all, but the least I can do. So for all that you have healed on me beyond man’s explanation, I am truly grateful. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
This is beautiful, Heidi! Thank you for these words! I will be remembering them. 🙂